Bowflex commercials are sad.
But I still want one. XD
...Okay, so I'm feeling really shitty today. Like, I literally just...skipped classes today just because I'm feeling so low. Like... uber low. Like, crying every five minutes kind of low.
I'm trying to pretend around friends that I'm doing okay and that I'm happy but I'm really not. Maybe it's just today because every other day I'm sort of on the level. But today, I just can't seem to get a good...mojo or something....going.
Or grammar for that matter.
I'm awful today.
Besides that, I'm sitting here watching "Beauty and the Geek" because all the loan places are already closed, so I can't figure out what I need to do to get home. I think it's generally agreed that I might stay for half a year in Edmonton to work first. But I can always stay for like...four months or five, and then get a job set up in Vancouver before I end up having to go to school again. I should have close to 8000 dollars saved up by then, or at least, that much of my debt paid off. Which will be good. It's just going to get really, really lonely.
We can visit each other at cons, but...I just don't like that idea. I hope he graduates soon so we can just live together again.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
woozle wuzzle
My friend Nicole spent three whole years writing down every single funny thing me and my group (aptly named "the Ring of Circle") had said during high school.
I made her read them out to me in search of a funny phrase I could use for my new website name...And I just HAD to share my favorites:
"I can't feel my hair." (I said it)
"I'm a genius!"
"No you're not, you work at Burger King."
"Oh God! Not Pennies!"
"Why am I always in the middle of what?"
"Move the doors."
"Loser with a capital 'B'."
"For all I give a care." (Also me)
"You already stuck your foot in your mouth, you might as well chew on it."
"I'm prostitution! No, wait... Protestant." (Me again!)
"I think I just coughed up a lung and I wasn't even coughing."
"Phil's not a god, he's an alcoholic!"
"If only I had a pocket!"
"For anyone who wants to know, I'm stripping."
"Phil's not old enough to be married."
"Yeah, but he's old enough to be gay!"
"You shoot someone in the head and you're asking for it, pal."
"Never step into a moving train."
"Remember when I had amnesia?" (Me!)
"I'm drugged."
"I'm not surprised."
And finally,
"Her mother is having a circumcision."
"...a cesarean?"
Although we don't really remember what we were talking about at the time, the phrases are hilarious out of context! And my friends and were totally weird. XD
I made her read them out to me in search of a funny phrase I could use for my new website name...And I just HAD to share my favorites:
"I can't feel my hair." (I said it)
"I'm a genius!"
"No you're not, you work at Burger King."
"Oh God! Not Pennies!"
"Why am I always in the middle of what?"
"Move the doors."
"Loser with a capital 'B'."
"For all I give a care." (Also me)
"You already stuck your foot in your mouth, you might as well chew on it."
"I'm prostitution! No, wait... Protestant." (Me again!)
"I think I just coughed up a lung and I wasn't even coughing."
"Phil's not a god, he's an alcoholic!"
"If only I had a pocket!"
"For anyone who wants to know, I'm stripping."
"Phil's not old enough to be married."
"Yeah, but he's old enough to be gay!"
"You shoot someone in the head and you're asking for it, pal."
"Never step into a moving train."
"Remember when I had amnesia?" (Me!)
"I'm drugged."
"I'm not surprised."
And finally,
"Her mother is having a circumcision."
"...a cesarean?"
Although we don't really remember what we were talking about at the time, the phrases are hilarious out of context! And my friends and were totally weird. XD
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Rot my Brain
I'm feeling so weak, and broken down.
I've been having really screwed up dreams lately, and I feel...crappy. I drew this picture off of the creature that has been running around in my head lately...
Honestly, I can't find a co-signer for me to stay in school, I'm just...running out of options. I can't figure out what to do.
I can't really apply for any of the schools back home...They don't offer diplomas, and a lot of them don't offer animation as a program at all. If I leave the Art Institute, 2 years of study goes out the window.
I've been on the phone like crazy with admissions for Emily Carr, but I'd really have to work on my portfolio for admission. They keep saying that they'd help me out, but I really don't want to have to begin from the beginning. It... sucks...
Anyone have any rich relatives that wouldn't mind co-signing for someone's school and future? I'll be indebted to them for the rest of my life - I'll make amazing cartoons about their lives! I'll do free advertisements for whatever business they have... I'll... I'll... Pay them back slowly through my commission work.
...God help me, I don't want to leave.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Throbbing Silky Sheets
My poor brain - it feels like it's melting.
I'm at school right now, it's just after 9 pm. It seems that everyone in the lounge is making death utters, but I'm not quite sure. I don't really feel like being part of the group tonight. I'm being rather anti-social, mostly because I'm just absolutely exhausted.
I've started putting clay on my sculpture project though. This thing is absolutely terrifying. It's not very nice of me, but I really don't like the person I'm sculpting. It's just one of those situations where there is no particular reason - I just don't like her.
Besides that though, I'm quite proud of myself. I've never done anything to this scale before. It's about 12 inches tall, and 5 or 6 inches deep. about 8 inches wide... The largest sculpture I've ever done has been like... a third of that. I will take pictures at some point in time. Maybe I'll figure out how to show pictures of things I've done easily on here.
I've also been working really hard on two musician's CD covers. The first one was very pleased with it, and should be releasing the CD for sale soon - possibly a couple of days. The second one, I literally just finished it, so I'm waiting for his opinion. I'm not really allowed to release these images until they've put out the CDs.
Besides that though, school is getting rather draining just because there's only three weeks left to this quarter. It's the crunch, and I still haven't paid for this month yet. The school kind of can't do anything about it either though - since they didn't send in a form that the student loan board requires to release funds.
I'm really glad I have a place where I can ramble on for what would be the equivalent of pages and pages of my journal. It's rather freeing to get some of my thoughts out somewhere. Somewhere I know I'm not going to have a stalker effect like livejournal. I think that was the thing that really freaked me out - because I knew I couldn't say certain things about certain people, because there was no telling if they were watching or not. Of course, I seem to be at a point where I will literally just tell people they're sick, pathetic, un-loved losers to their faces...
so it's not necessarily the only reason I hate livejournal.
Anyway...Wow, that's the first word I've heard about the blond bitch (who has lost name over time) in probably... dear lord... several months at least. Odd, I never seem to be the one to bring her up though.
Speaking of nothing on that topic though - should it worry me that my fiance seems to have a male soul mate? *laughs and scratches the back of her head uncomfortably* Or maybe it should bother me more because they'd be prettier together. *LOL*
*flops*
Oh, I depressed myself. *chuckles*
Anyway, I wonder how much nicer this place would be if these kids were taught to use their inside voices at a young age...
I really just want to go home and go to sleep. I have to wake up for my class at 10 am tomorrow morning, and I just really don't get much rest throughout the week since most of the classes go until ten-ish, and then it takes us anywhere from 45 minutes to 2 hours to get home, depending on the people around us. We were supposed to go to a bowling party tonight... but I don't like the idea of being the only persons not wearing a fursuit...
I'm at school right now, it's just after 9 pm. It seems that everyone in the lounge is making death utters, but I'm not quite sure. I don't really feel like being part of the group tonight. I'm being rather anti-social, mostly because I'm just absolutely exhausted.
I've started putting clay on my sculpture project though. This thing is absolutely terrifying. It's not very nice of me, but I really don't like the person I'm sculpting. It's just one of those situations where there is no particular reason - I just don't like her.
Besides that though, I'm quite proud of myself. I've never done anything to this scale before. It's about 12 inches tall, and 5 or 6 inches deep. about 8 inches wide... The largest sculpture I've ever done has been like... a third of that. I will take pictures at some point in time. Maybe I'll figure out how to show pictures of things I've done easily on here.
I've also been working really hard on two musician's CD covers. The first one was very pleased with it, and should be releasing the CD for sale soon - possibly a couple of days. The second one, I literally just finished it, so I'm waiting for his opinion. I'm not really allowed to release these images until they've put out the CDs.
Besides that though, school is getting rather draining just because there's only three weeks left to this quarter. It's the crunch, and I still haven't paid for this month yet. The school kind of can't do anything about it either though - since they didn't send in a form that the student loan board requires to release funds.
I'm really glad I have a place where I can ramble on for what would be the equivalent of pages and pages of my journal. It's rather freeing to get some of my thoughts out somewhere. Somewhere I know I'm not going to have a stalker effect like livejournal. I think that was the thing that really freaked me out - because I knew I couldn't say certain things about certain people, because there was no telling if they were watching or not. Of course, I seem to be at a point where I will literally just tell people they're sick, pathetic, un-loved losers to their faces...
so it's not necessarily the only reason I hate livejournal.
Anyway...Wow, that's the first word I've heard about the blond bitch (who has lost name over time) in probably... dear lord... several months at least. Odd, I never seem to be the one to bring her up though.
Speaking of nothing on that topic though - should it worry me that my fiance seems to have a male soul mate? *laughs and scratches the back of her head uncomfortably* Or maybe it should bother me more because they'd be prettier together. *LOL*
*flops*
Oh, I depressed myself. *chuckles*
Anyway, I wonder how much nicer this place would be if these kids were taught to use their inside voices at a young age...
I really just want to go home and go to sleep. I have to wake up for my class at 10 am tomorrow morning, and I just really don't get much rest throughout the week since most of the classes go until ten-ish, and then it takes us anywhere from 45 minutes to 2 hours to get home, depending on the people around us. We were supposed to go to a bowling party tonight... but I don't like the idea of being the only persons not wearing a fursuit...
Monday, August 13, 2007
Moaning Cats
Well, that was a fun and exciting experience trying to hack my way back into this account. They really don't like to give you your new information for when you sign up. That really doesn't help much when you're sitting there going "Google ID? I don't have a Google ID..."
Anyway, I slept funny I think. The last few nights I have been awoken to the feeling of ants crawling on me. I wasn't crazy, I killed them, and disposed of the bodies (ha ha) but it really leaves you with hat creepy crawly feeling when you try to go to sleep. We pulled the entire bed apart to see where they were coming from, and could not find anything for the life of us. We vacuumed, lifted Mika's cage up higher, and tightened the screws on our bed (that's just because it was squeaky) but to no avail. I figured then, that probably the only way these little bugs were getting in the bed were probably because there's an air vent leading right into the attic. They've had problems with bugs falling out of there before - except those ones are the GIGANTIC NASTY COCKROACHES they have around here. *shudders* I'm pretty sure those are the only creatures on earth that literally freak me the hell out. Long story short though, we put up one of those huge magnet covers, so nothing could 'drop in', and now it's really hot in the room, since that was our air conditioning vent.
Georgia makes me laugh for many reasons. I doubt I could name them all off the top of my head, but I always find that even when it's boring, it's a bit of an adventure down here. I do, however, wish I was back in Vancouver.
Now you're probably wondering why this post is entitled the way it is. Well, for starters, I like to name my entries with interesting titles so I don't go mental writing boring things over and over again. Secondly, I really am trying to get my artistic juices flowing again when it comes to words. I think my IQ has been slipping because I haven't been reading and writing as much as I used to; and if any of you happen to know me, you'll know I'm rather arrogant when it comes to my intelligence. Funny for someone who still manages to spell rather simple words wrong. None come to my mind at the moment, but thats alright. It's only 9 AM. I'm sure I'll come up with something. The day is long, so there are many chances for me to screw something up.
Lastly, I woke up and searched for the computer, because I know Ookami finds it rather irritating when I wake him up in the morning just to bitch and rant. i.e. the whole reason for me getting a new blog. So I ventured down stairs to find the laptop which had mysteriously disappeared from the bedroom, and the family cat was sleeping on an ottoman. I sat down, and immediately when she noticed I was there she begins YOWLING. Now, I'm an animal person, but there are just some specific personalities that...you just don't like. And this cat happens to be one of them. I just don't like this cat. X_x; So she's yowling, and yowling and I'm just like "SHHH! Hush up." and she gets a little quieter.
Now, let me stop here, and just say that 'No, I'm not being cruel' to the cat. This cat is queen bee around this house. She literally has everyone wrapped around her pinky claw. She knows that if she yowls loud enough, someone will come running. So she does it ALL the time. EVERY hour of the night. Even just so that you'll come and sit with her...at four o'clock in the morning. I'm not into that, and I don't support that kind of behaviour.
So she keeps yowling, and I get up, and take the computer and go back upstairs. A second later, it goes all quiet again. I think she's starting to get the idea that that doesn't work on me. She keeps testing it, but more often then not, she'll shut up. Now, with Ookami it's a different story all together. She will go ON and ON and ON until you think she's literally had all of her legs ripped off. Ookami will go and look for her, and she'll just be sitting there with an innocent grin thinking "What took you so long, slave?"
So that's why this one is titled this way.
And as far as updates to my life goes, here it is: I'm going to get a new website because Troy is a stalker and a complete loser. I don't even remember the blond's name anymore...Kathy! She's a freak, and god help her new boyfriends who will probably end up waking up with missing kidneys. The other chick with the black curly hair... Um... I don't know anymore... But she's a complete run-o'-the-mill looney, and I know she'll get her come-uppins. Happy things? I love all my friends here, and the ones back home: Heather, Thanh, Nicole, Steven, Grant, Jen, Michelle, Stan, Kim, Miriam, Kristi, Azadeh and anyone else I didn't mention - I miss you guys!
To everyone here in GA: Panda, Dimitri, Donovan, Myoti, Laura, Maggie, Cat, Ed, Becca, Bonk, Jacent, and all the countless others that I would take too long to write down - I can't wait to hang out with ya'll more and go nuts. XD
Hugs and kisses ya'll.
Anyway, I slept funny I think. The last few nights I have been awoken to the feeling of ants crawling on me. I wasn't crazy, I killed them, and disposed of the bodies (ha ha) but it really leaves you with hat creepy crawly feeling when you try to go to sleep. We pulled the entire bed apart to see where they were coming from, and could not find anything for the life of us. We vacuumed, lifted Mika's cage up higher, and tightened the screws on our bed (that's just because it was squeaky) but to no avail. I figured then, that probably the only way these little bugs were getting in the bed were probably because there's an air vent leading right into the attic. They've had problems with bugs falling out of there before - except those ones are the GIGANTIC NASTY COCKROACHES they have around here. *shudders* I'm pretty sure those are the only creatures on earth that literally freak me the hell out. Long story short though, we put up one of those huge magnet covers, so nothing could 'drop in', and now it's really hot in the room, since that was our air conditioning vent.
Georgia makes me laugh for many reasons. I doubt I could name them all off the top of my head, but I always find that even when it's boring, it's a bit of an adventure down here. I do, however, wish I was back in Vancouver.
Now you're probably wondering why this post is entitled the way it is. Well, for starters, I like to name my entries with interesting titles so I don't go mental writing boring things over and over again. Secondly, I really am trying to get my artistic juices flowing again when it comes to words. I think my IQ has been slipping because I haven't been reading and writing as much as I used to; and if any of you happen to know me, you'll know I'm rather arrogant when it comes to my intelligence. Funny for someone who still manages to spell rather simple words wrong. None come to my mind at the moment, but thats alright. It's only 9 AM. I'm sure I'll come up with something. The day is long, so there are many chances for me to screw something up.
Lastly, I woke up and searched for the computer, because I know Ookami finds it rather irritating when I wake him up in the morning just to bitch and rant. i.e. the whole reason for me getting a new blog. So I ventured down stairs to find the laptop which had mysteriously disappeared from the bedroom, and the family cat was sleeping on an ottoman. I sat down, and immediately when she noticed I was there she begins YOWLING. Now, I'm an animal person, but there are just some specific personalities that...you just don't like. And this cat happens to be one of them. I just don't like this cat. X_x; So she's yowling, and yowling and I'm just like "SHHH! Hush up." and she gets a little quieter.
Now, let me stop here, and just say that 'No, I'm not being cruel' to the cat. This cat is queen bee around this house. She literally has everyone wrapped around her pinky claw. She knows that if she yowls loud enough, someone will come running. So she does it ALL the time. EVERY hour of the night. Even just so that you'll come and sit with her...at four o'clock in the morning. I'm not into that, and I don't support that kind of behaviour.
So she keeps yowling, and I get up, and take the computer and go back upstairs. A second later, it goes all quiet again. I think she's starting to get the idea that that doesn't work on me. She keeps testing it, but more often then not, she'll shut up. Now, with Ookami it's a different story all together. She will go ON and ON and ON until you think she's literally had all of her legs ripped off. Ookami will go and look for her, and she'll just be sitting there with an innocent grin thinking "What took you so long, slave?"
So that's why this one is titled this way.
And as far as updates to my life goes, here it is: I'm going to get a new website because Troy is a stalker and a complete loser. I don't even remember the blond's name anymore...Kathy! She's a freak, and god help her new boyfriends who will probably end up waking up with missing kidneys. The other chick with the black curly hair... Um... I don't know anymore... But she's a complete run-o'-the-mill looney, and I know she'll get her come-uppins. Happy things? I love all my friends here, and the ones back home: Heather, Thanh, Nicole, Steven, Grant, Jen, Michelle, Stan, Kim, Miriam, Kristi, Azadeh and anyone else I didn't mention - I miss you guys!
To everyone here in GA: Panda, Dimitri, Donovan, Myoti, Laura, Maggie, Cat, Ed, Becca, Bonk, Jacent, and all the countless others that I would take too long to write down - I can't wait to hang out with ya'll more and go nuts. XD
Hugs and kisses ya'll.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Not enough paper
There's not enough paper in the world to let me bitch about everything that pisses me off lately, but that's exactly what blogs exist for, right? That and emo kids who think they're important.
Anyway, I really just wanted to complain and complain because I'm in such a god awful mood. But hopefully it's just because I haven't eaten anything.
Apparently dinner is starting so I should go do that and give that a try. Hopefully I'll post more here because it's less irritating then livejournal. I'm so bloody sick of livejournal, that's for sure.
Anyway, I really just wanted to complain and complain because I'm in such a god awful mood. But hopefully it's just because I haven't eaten anything.
Apparently dinner is starting so I should go do that and give that a try. Hopefully I'll post more here because it's less irritating then livejournal. I'm so bloody sick of livejournal, that's for sure.
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